Prayer in Despair
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Out of the depths of my heart
Flew a bird towards the skies
It carried with it all that was mine,
All that was dear and all that was sublime.
The loneliness that ensued
Left me motionless and mute
And neither my brain nor my heart
Functioned, or gave to time any salute.
A melody somewhere far away
Broke the monotony of this play
Collecting the memories gone astray
Adhered to the recesses of mind gone gray.
The longing to see my parents long gone
The sight of my Father, struggling and forlorn,
The sight of my Mother, draped in white,
Not moving, taking with her, her pain and plight.
The pious songs in his melodious voice he sang
The smiles she gave whenever I rang,
The comfort, the showers of love that they bestowed
Nowhere, only in my heart do I hold.
Busy in my life with kids and work galore
Busy in my routine, craving for more and more,
Letting years become just a memory
Separated in body by waves of sea.
Suddenly, the shock of being alone hits me,
The pain of too much love tortures me
And unbidden the memories attack
Exhumed from the graves that I had packed,
Obliterating the veils of false security
Opening melodious memories in all purity
The crescendo of my thoughts reaches its octave
The pain of tenderness making me brave.
My children who now live so far away
May love me, but snatch my joys away
I’d housed them for nine months each
And now they only are so out of reach!
I burden not the present with thoughts bleak
And memories flicker from dawn to sleep,
Hiding happiness in all achievements
Breaking all resolves into tiny fragments.
This loneliness and that loss
Is like a stick thrown with a toss
In an ocean high on tide
When moon is full of light.
Tranquility I search with all my might,
I know, joys and sorrows together are tied,
Sorrows__ I’ll hide
In the yellow pages of my mind.
I’ll joyfully and willingly bleed for them all
Collect all the pain in a tomb that is tall
To emanate only joy and laughter
Like a Fairytale, let them live happily hereafter.
20 Comments
really , it has come from the depth of ur heart
keep writting
Parminder ji
regards rajdeep
parminder Reply:
October 22nd, 2008 at 12:04 pm
I’ll certainly keep trying. All the appreciation is a motivator for sure.
we can feel the reverbrations of your heart
parminder Reply:
October 22nd, 2008 at 12:05 pm
I think you would understand the jeopardy of us females. Thanks a lot.
A good poem with deep emotions.
parminder Reply:
October 22nd, 2008 at 12:06 pm
Thanks Medhini. Am a fan of your poems .
Hello maam,
How are you……you have a great poem here…..I was not able to access the site as I was travelling…..great work though….
Read your poem……good one……rightly a winner…..
Have a nice New year
Permindar ji
I read your poem ,u have presented all views as well,nice good.please write short. this is my suggestion.
I write in hindi.living at hoshangabad m.p. my daughters help me for writing on computer
parminder Reply:
March 14th, 2009 at 4:28 pm
Thank you for the suggestion , I’ii keep it in mind. I also try to write in Hindi .
Read it again after a long time and found comfort in a way I cannot put it in words. The more I read, the more meaningful it turns out every time…
parminder Reply:
May 13th, 2009 at 9:37 pm
Thank you Krishna. I suppose as you grow in years, one lgoes through different experiences of life and somehow the perspective also changes. Some things become clearer too. These separations that we all have to go through are unavoidable, so one should learn to accept things gracefully. That is what I have always tried. I always state what my heart dictates. If that can impart some solace or guidance, my good luck! 
Born and brought up in Kanpur, married in Jaipur and now in Chandigarh, I have been fortunate to taste various cultures of our country. Had a brief stint in teaching while in Jaipur but more duties called. Now, help my husband in his business as much as I can. I love Music, reading, writing, painting, when time allows as I am part of a family of nearly 70 lovely people. I will always be indebted to p4poetry for providing an outlet for what I had always kept under lock and key.
a very deep poem that came from the depths of your heart
intricately woven into words
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parminder Reply:
October 22nd, 2008 at 12:03 pm
Thanks Parikshit, I think all Mothers and Daughters go through these phases in life, only thing is I chose to express.
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